Disha is going to be Eight this January. She is growing up really fast. When she was very little I was thinking, when will she grow up and takes care of her own things. Now when she is quite young to take care of her day to day routines, my thoughts are taking me in past. I am reminiscing those old days. When i used to carry her - close to me, in my safe hands, with all my warmth. When she spoke her 1st letter & 1st word. When she took her 1st step - those balancing acts and efforts, looking at me with the feeling of achievement after walking that step. When she 1st time ate her food using spoon, when she sang a song (3 full lines of a song).
Now, when she converses with me, its more like talking to a friend than a mother. I am enjoying it. She is more confident, more assertive, more accepting as well rebellious (sometimes), very emotional (hardly show any), very understanding (that scare me sometime), intelligent, playful. When i look at her, I think, "Dishu you look so big. You are growing up. Please stop for a while. I want to enjoy your this age and don't want you to become mature. I want this free bird like kid."
Today, she gives me time, talks to me, want my company, likes to play with me, likes to fight with me, loves me. I can still carry her (although with struggle) and hug her as tight as i want, kiss her as long as want. She likes it, wants it, enjoys it, feels happy about it. She has started asking me "Mamma, you only mine na??". I always reply her " Yes babu... I am yours only. You are my lovely child." Not sure why she has started asking this. But she likes that I am only her possession and not anybody else's.
I always ask myself, Tomorrow, when she will be grown up and in her teen age, will she converse with me or want me and my time like now? And the answer comes "YES". I know, if now I am giving her time, tomorrow she will definitely give me time and we will have same fun as now. Although such days are far but looking at today's urban world/westernization, with exposure to televisions, cartoons and friends in school, I am worried for tomorrow.